100th Post

Peace be upon u dear Readers,

Alhmdulillah, without realising, I had already achieve 100 post. :) 

Btw, for this upcoming AidilAdha, Im wishing u all, Selamat Hari Raya Qurban :)

unfortunately, Im not going back for this Raya. Tsk tsk.

Im celebrating Raya Qurban this year with my Sarawakian n sabahan friends here.

New experience, and must get used of the feeling not going back home.

Boleh jimat duit skit.

Harap tak nangis di pagi Raya. TT.TT

How the time passed by

Peace be upon u readers.
Praised belong to Allah for given me an opportunity to write again. :)

In the name of Allah the most gracious and merciful.

Scratching back on my old post. Reading all the comments. How time had passed through... I realised there was difference between my current post and my previous post. I mean, my ver very previous post.

Back on 2010 all I was talking about is my future. There was all this kind of worries revolves around me about getting chances to be in medical field. Wondering where will i head after SPM.

Alhmdulillah,,, looking at myself now, standing here, being at USM, entitled as full time medical student, tied with responsibility towards my parents n the nation, make me cant asked for more. There was so many things that i had planned back then was change. We planned, but Allah had a better plan for us.

And i remembered back then, there was a friend of mine, this friend that i used to adore n looked up upon him. He was a great guy. Indeed... But then, everything change because of this one person. He change. Yep, people do change aite. All i can do was pray for his well-being so that he can be that great person that I know before. May Allah endowed him with blessings n show him the way.

Time passed by, people change. So do i. I guess I had change a lot. Seeing those old post back there make me realised that my writing was even more matured now. Nature, im growing old, death become closer. Am i prepared? It can be anytime and place. When Allah said 'kun fayakun' it happens.

Despite of trying hard to be a good muslimah doctor, I should work hard to be a mukminat.

Phase 2 is REAL

Peace be upon u brother and sisters. :)

Odd. Today i decided to scribble something useful on my blog since i had totally being immersed in my pre-clinical years. 

Yep, Alhmdulillah for this wonderful journey. Praise belong to Allah for all His blessings n gifts. 

Congratulations for my colleages that had successfully gone through the hectic life during phase 1. 

For those that didnt manage to passed through, dont give up. :) He knows more than us the reason lies behind. Keep on the pace. Sometimes, no matter how hard the path u r going through, when it had already written there u are destined to be a doctor, then u will be. The journey didnt end there. :) we'll always there to help. aite?

Well, Alhmdulillah. Alhmdulillah. Alhmdulillah. 2nd year was really interesting. we were exposed more on clinical teaching n practices. Being around the patient makes my dream even real. It is REAL Fatin Affina!! On 7 Oct 2012, I had clerk my 1st patient n manage to present my case to the respective doctor. My patient was presented with COPD. It was an interesting case indeed. I learnt a lot from my patient. Alhmdulillah... My presentation run smoothly as planned. Yeah, It was tiring indeed. but, I enjoyed being around the ward. Seeing all the patients makes me even more thrilled with the REAL challenge ahead me. :) "Ya Allah, make me stronger day by day, be with me, show me the way. dont ever leave me even with a blink of an eye. I need You." 

Yes, although I achieved a good result for the previous Final examination. that doesnt seems to be counted on phase 2. Yeah, it was really good to be selected as one. But, being me,isn't easy. Sometimes, I was hoping that I am just ordinary student. People keep pushing n reminding me of last semester. Indeed, It was wonderful memory n I was very grateful. But, it was not easy for me for this upcoming semester because of people's high expectation. Sometimes, I just cant bear with it. I keep pushing myself until one time I forget that, He was there for me to tell everything. "everything happens for a reason". 

O' Allah... make my heart full of ur rememberence. so, that I am not being brag and arrogant with what u had given me. I am just your servant. Thank you for endowed me with all of these. Make my iman stronger so that I can overcome this test successfully. Ameen~

Dear readers, don't push yourself to ease everyone. Enjoy your life. Depends ONLY upon Him okay. :) Assalam 

Cinta

Assalamualaikum wbt. Dengan Nama Allah, yg Maha Pengasih, lg Maha Penyayang. :)

Hari ini aku hidup, syukur Alhmdulillah...
Dah lama tak tulis post kat blog. Sekarang dah bermula minggu study week yg begitu 'hectic'.

Namun, Alhmdulillah... Dia sentiasa menemani ku,
di kala aku stress Dia lapangkan dadaku,
Dia bagi aku semangat,
kadang2 bila aku fikir balik, setianya Dia,
tap aku selalu lupa padaNya,
tap, bila aku berpaling semula dekat Dia,
Dia terima aku, Dia dengar rintihanku, Dia ada di kala aku keseorgn.

Dia buat aku hidup setiap hari,
buat aku rs hidup ini ada tujuan,
macam2 Dia dah bagi, :)
Termasuklah, kasih sayang Dia,
macam2 aku mintak,
kadang2 terasa muka ni x tahu malu,
sbb tahu minta, tap memberi amatlah sedikit,
tap, Dia tak kesah, sbb Dia syg kita :')
Penyayang kan Dia?

Paling spesial, sejahat jahat mana pun seseorg itu,
Dia tetap sayang dan maafkan org tu,
Dia tetap cinta dan rindu org yg tak pernah lupakan Dia,
Dia sentiasa tahu apa yg terbaik untuk kita
walaupun kdg2 tu kita tarik muka sbb tak boleh nak terima apa yg sbnrnya baik untk kita,

Dia dah buat peraturan supaya kita boleh ikut,
sbb Dia nak lindungi kita,
cuma aku ni degil, kadang2 aku langgar,
tap, bila aku minta maaf, Dia maafkan...
Baiknyaa Dia...

Bila aku nak makan, Dia bagi,
Bila aku nak belajar, Dia mudahkan aku belajar,
Dia bagi dan kongsi ilmu2 Nya,
Pemurahnyaa Dia...
Dia x pernah berkira... :)

Paling indah kata-kata cintaNya yg dia telah turunkan buat kita semua (al-Quran).
Dia tersgtlah Agung...

Kalau seorg manusia melakukan semua ini untuk kita? pasti kita jatuh cinta bukan?
Dia adalah Allah swt... Semoga segala apa yg telah Allah lakukan untuk hamba-hambaNya,
akan menguatkan lagi cinta2 kita padanya.

Ya, tanpa kita sedari, Dia telah byk memberi nikmat kpd kita. cuma kdg2 kita terlupa. (peringatan buat diri sendiri). Semoga cinta kita adalah yg teratas buatNya. Dialah segalanya... Cintailah Dia... kerana, mencintainya tidak akan pernah membuat kita rs kecewa. :')