Bucketlist

1. Umrah/Hajj with family 

2. Having a house full of cats

3. O&G specialist 

4. Pass Pro 3

5. Playing with snow

6. Flying Fox

7. Backpacker

8. Travel with friends

9. Own some property worth a billion ringgit

10. Being a good doctor :)

11. Dolphin 

12. Hugging panda

13. Visit Turki 

14. Hot air baloon

Dear patient

Praised belong to Allah swt.

First of all i would like to wish you happy new year 2016!

I hope everyone have a clear vision and mission for this upcoming year.

Im in my second week of medical posting currently

Theres nothing much different than my year 4 posting except for new supervisor and some new posting which is hematological ward posting.

So far, i am still trying my best to catch-up myself with all the disease seen in the ward.

Final year is no joke

People already started to visualize us as a doctor

And we try our best to potray to the patients and our lecturers that we are capable of being a 'safe doctor'.

Sometimes, at some point in our life we felt exhausted and frustrated with ourselves. My lecturer told me, we are not a robot. We also a human, just like you. We have emotion, and it is normal to feel that way. Sometimes, we need a break to sort things out and to get ourselves back together. 

And it is dangerous to not having any feeling or emotion, as you need it to feel empathy towards your patient and love towards your job. So, cry if you lost your patient, laugh if you feel its funny, fight if you think its necessary for your patient's wellbeing and rest if you feel you had reach your limit.

As for me, medical posting is challenging in a way of keeping myself continuously revising all the important common diseases and its management. Yes, it is challenging to remember all of it. Sometimes, i feel like my brain exploding with all of this info's and need to vomit it all back to relieved the loads. 

Dear patient,

Being a doctor is not easy..

This journey never been easy..

Let me tell you how the journey be like...

We were told to 'do no harm' to you

We were told to do 'justice' to you

We hold to this oath & principle in our heart

Treating you would be like treating our family members

So, losing you would also be like losing to our own family members

In order to not losing lives in our hand

We need to burn midnight oil to make sure we are equipped with adequate knowledge 

For that took us to sacrifice a lot of things in our life

Relationships, family, hobby, rest, eating and even a time for ourself

So dear patient,

A sense of gratitude from you

Will be more than enough for us

To feel good about ourselves and to lift our spirit back during our bad days

And what makes us more happy is..

Seeing you being able to smile again

And waiving to us saying goodbye leaving us in a good condition.

That is all we need..

District with my girls

Bismillah...

Community med posting in pasir mas has ended.

Such a wonderful 2 weeks experience in district especially with my babes all in one apartment.

I get a good food, good sleep, good care, good time with all of them. We did the dishes, cook and bake together. Theres soo many wonderful and good memories with them. I love each and everyone of my girls. They are like my own sister.

I miss loudness of the house. Playing card (bluff) with em. Singing and dancing together before sleep. Doing anaest report while listening to our fav song together. Teasing and laughing at each other. Fooling and goofing around. Omg... Soo many fun things we've done together. Not to forget when we felt incomplete when one of us fall sick. And how concern we were to each and everyone of us.

To all my girls,
U guys brought sun to my gloomy day,
Brought smile to my frowning face,
Brought the rhythm for me to dance,
Create good memories for me to recall during my old days,

Each of everyone of you are irreplaceable,
Thank you for pouring lots of love in our friendship,
I hope it blooms beautifully as the flowers during the spring,
May Allah blessed and showered all of you with happiness,
As what i remember you guys are.

I hope everyone remember these moments even after we're not together anymore. Even after we met new besrfriends later in our life, never forget the good and bad moment that we shared along our journey together. I love u guys!

Random thought

May peace be upon you,

its been too long already i didn't write anything in my blog. On my previous post, i promised to update on my study trip to Tzu Chi University. but due to time constraint, i am unable to update anything since i am now struggling for my upcoming final which is on this may. I had just finished my 3rd selanjar examination yesterday. Alhamdulillah. Thanks for all the do'a. Allah ease everything for us. May Allah make it easy for us in the final too on this may. Ameen.

Lately,  i've been thinking to shut down my blog. But still in my consideration. Too many stories that i wrote here in my blog. I started my blog since 2010 which i'm at my highschool years at that time. Until now, i am still not very good in handling my blog. Too many flaws here and there. One reason for me having this blog to practice my writing skills in english. I have a very bad english. Still learning through the way. I am trying my best at it.

Now, I'm in my 3rd year. I will be entering clinical years this Sept, insyaAllah. How time flies... It feels like only yesterday I had finished my 1st year. May Allah ease our journey. My friend and I, all together... may we all passed with flying colors.

-fina-