Random thought

May peace be upon you,

its been too long already i didn't write anything in my blog. On my previous post, i promised to update on my study trip to Tzu Chi University. but due to time constraint, i am unable to update anything since i am now struggling for my upcoming final which is on this may. I had just finished my 3rd selanjar examination yesterday. Alhamdulillah. Thanks for all the do'a. Allah ease everything for us. May Allah make it easy for us in the final too on this may. Ameen.

Lately,  i've been thinking to shut down my blog. But still in my consideration. Too many stories that i wrote here in my blog. I started my blog since 2010 which i'm at my highschool years at that time. Until now, i am still not very good in handling my blog. Too many flaws here and there. One reason for me having this blog to practice my writing skills in english. I have a very bad english. Still learning through the way. I am trying my best at it.

Now, I'm in my 3rd year. I will be entering clinical years this Sept, insyaAllah. How time flies... It feels like only yesterday I had finished my 1st year. May Allah ease our journey. My friend and I, all together... may we all passed with flying colors.

-fina-

Inexorable Hope 1

Peace be upon u dear readers, :)

Praised belong to God, for giving my friends and I the opportunity to be involve in the surgical training at Tzu Chi University, Hualien, Taiwan on 3-12 December 2013. :)
After all, Allah is the best planner.

I had received email from Tzu chi during the early negotiation with their international officer regarding this silent mentor programme. However, it then end with disappointment when they say only 2 of us will be accepted to attend the programme. The disappointment continue after our appeal also being denied. Everyone was disappointed. I felt very frustrated when it turned out to be 'not me' who are the one will be attending this programme. I cried... I want it so bad... My group which comprise of 2 guys and 3 ladies (including me) decided to split up since two of the ladies will be going there based on the random vote. I guess it wasn't my luck on that day. So, the two guys and me were planning to do a research regarding parasite in Malaysia.

One of our method to get an information for our research is going to visit the one and only parasite museum in the world, Meguro Parasitology Museum, Japan. Since our supervisor encourage us to take a step further and this was the only chance for us to explore the outside world. But still, even though it was not bad at all doing research regarding parasite but my heart was still longing for the 'silent mentor' programme. Hoping that I am the one attending the programme. Somehow, we are just human, not everything that we want is good for us. I believe everything happens for a reason. I keep on praying so that there were still a chance for 3 of us. I keep on praying until one day I stopped and start accepting the fact that only 2 of them will be going. Yes, I move on and redha.

Though I didn't have the chance to attend the programme, I still helping my two friends dealing with Tzu chi through email. Maybe this was my last contribution so that they can do their best and came back to Malaysia with knowledge that can be shared together. :')

to be continue... (I will explain about this programme in my next post, insyaAllah)

Chinese

May peace be upon u dear readers, :)

Today i wanna talk about chinese friends. :)
Actually, since the kindergarden untill now i was surrounded by chinese except during the primary school i was sent to typical malay school. And there was a scarce chinese student indeed.

During the kindergarden i would say i make friends with everyone and it seems to be fun. No hatred or racis towards each other. We play, run and tease each other and dance together (the things that i can reminiscence till today LOL). We even sit together to eat and most of my teacher was chinese too. All i can say was my kindergarden phase was awesome. And i dont have any problems being friends with them.

During the secondary school, i was sent by mother to the sekolah menengah sains labuan (SMSL). But then, during form 2 I decided to leave that school and i was sent to SM ST Anne Convent Labuan (SAC) one of the best girls school in labuan. :) since the school was under the church and goverment, so, most of the students were non- muslim and the numbers of chinese students and malay students were nearly the same.

In SAC, i also found that it was fun having chinese friends. I love them. We learn together, eat together, play together, we undergo PMR and SPM together and we share our stories together. We even had the same tuition place together! We were united together. And it was compulsory for them to come to my house every Hari Raya Eidulfitri. :D I love each of everyone of them. Cheah gin sin, abigail lim, lee kwang ling, danielle clare chua hui ling, shane o neil, thompson yunga, wandee, lim, madelyn ong, Tse lan, sophie foo and more!! :') i miss them. Esp my classmates 4A3 and 5A3. Do u guys know how much i miss u guys? U guys are an awsome one! Irreplaceable.

Now, in USM the environment was the same. But what i can see is that, there was more on racis things happen here. But not everyone was felt the same. Mybe they had their own reason and past experience for being like that. But, Alhmdulillah (praised belong to Allah) everything happens for a reason. At first, i dont really like my groupmate, but now i realised that, hate and love was different. It was more on love. Good always wins the heart. I can see everyone was adapting with these environment as well as my chinese friends too. We began to feel ease and love for each other. I can see that duing PBL now. I felt the competitiveness and it was the one that actually keep me moving on striving for excellence. Being better each day. The most important things was learning with chinese here can occasionally improve my english! And so far, never a friend of mine (chinese) laugh when i was speaking.

Actually, what are the purpose of me writing this kind of stuff?
Dear readers,
If u had chinese friends at school or even college, be-friend with them. We always like to judge a book by its cover (like me). But when u know the content of the book, u will fall for it. Know them and learn how most of them acquired success. Spread the love.

Wassalam,
Fina

Prayer

Prayers (Salat)

Sahih bukhari, Volume 1, Book 8, Number 345:

Narrated Abu Dhar:

Allah's Apostle said, "While I was at Mecca the roof of my house was opened and Gabriel descended, opened my chest, and washed it with Zam-zam water. Then he brought a golden tray full of wisdom and faith and having poured its contents into my chest, he closed it. Then he took my hand and ascended with me to the nearest heaven, when I reached the nearest heaven, Gabriel said to the gatekeeper of the heaven, 'Open (the gate).' The gatekeeper asked, 'Who is it?' Gabriel answered: 'Gabriel.' He asked, 'Is there anyone with you?' Gabriel replied, 'Yes, Muhammad I is with me.' He asked, 'Has he been called?' Gabriel said, 'Yes.' So the gate was opened and we went over the nearest heaven and there we saw a man sitting with some people on his right and some on his left. When he looked towards his right, he laughed and when he looked toward his left he wept. Then he said, 'Welcome! O pious Prophet and pious son.' I asked Gabriel, 'Who is he?' He replied, 'He is Adam and the people on his right and left are the souls of his offspring. Those on his right are the people of Paradise and those on his left are the people of Hell and when he looks towards his right he laughs and when he looks towards his left he weeps.'

Then he ascended with me till he reached the second heaven and he (Gabriel) said to its gatekeeper, 'Open (the gate).' The gatekeeper said to him the same as the gatekeeper of the first heaven had said and he opened the gate. Anas said: "Abu Dhar added that the Prophet met Adam, Idris, Moses, Jesus and Abraham, he (Abu Dhar) did not mention on which heaven they were but he mentioned that he (the Prophet ) met Adarn on the nearest heaven and Abraham on the sixth heaven. Anas said, "When Gabriel along with the Prophet passed by Idris, the latter said, 'Welcome! O pious Prophet and pious brother.' The Prophet asked, 'Who is he?' Gabriel replied, 'He is Idris." The Prophet added, "I passed by Moses and he said, 'Welcome! O pious Prophet and pious brother.' I asked Gabriel, 'Who is he?' Gabriel replied, 'He is Moses.' Then I passed by Jesus and he said, 'Welcome! O pious brother and pious Prophet.' I asked, 'Who is he?' Gabriel replied, 'He is Jesus.

Then I passed by Abraham and he said, 'Welcome! O pious Prophet and pious son.' I asked Gabriel, 'Who is he?' Gabriel replied, 'He is Abraham. The Prophet added, 'Then Gabriel ascended with me to a place where I heard the creaking of the pens." Ibn Hazm and Anas bin Malik said: The Prophet said, "Then Allah enjoined fifty prayers on my followers when I returned with this order of Allah, I passed by Moses who asked me, 'What has Allah enjoined on your followers?' I replied, 'He has enjoined fifty prayers on them.' Moses said, 'Go back to your Lord (and appeal for reduction) for your followers will not be able to bear it.' (So I went back to Allah and requested for reduction) and He reduced it to half. When I passed by Moses again and informed him about it, he said, 'Go back to your Lord as your followers will not be able to bear it.' So I returned to Allah and requested for further reduction and half of it was reduced. I again passed by Moses and he said to me: 'Return to your Lord, for your followers will not be able to bear it. So I returned to Allah and He said, 'These are five prayers and they are all (equal to) fifty (in reward) for My Word does not change.' I returned to Moses and he told me to go back once again. I replied, 'Now I feel shy of asking my Lord again.' Then Gabriel took me till we '' reached Sidrat-il-Muntaha (Lote tree of; the utmost boundry) which was shrouded in colors, indescribable. Then I was admitted into Paradise where I found small (tents or) walls (made) of pearls and its earth was of musk."