in the middle of 2010 and 2011 =p

Salam~
2131 pm
about 3 hr and 30min
we r in 2011 ppl!!!!
huhu~

u knw wat,
nw i am sitting in front of the TV
tgk galeri nasional
"kerjaya seorg doc"
wow! agak mncabar... huhuhuhuhu...
takut la plak.
k, apa2 pon, hepi new year~
2010 will always be a memorable year
2010 will be unexpected year =)
Hoping 2011 will be better year than 2010
InsyaALlah~ FIGHTIN!

Nowadays~

Assalamualaikum...
Waaa... dah cuti dah.
mcm x sgka la pla.
dlm masa bbrpa jam lg smpai d rmh dah =)
really2 miss my family a lot.

Alhmdulilllah,
nsib baik time2 nak blik nie bru nak dmam
x tahan dah dok puncak, nak blik!
sbb bila rs x shat,
mula la mncri belaian ibu =)
biasalah kan... demam.
but im being independant
am i?

today
Alhmdulillah..
presentation bjln dgn lncr,
walaupun byk jg sgkut n jwpn yg
x begitu tepat dberikan kpd evaluater
namun, usaha yg gigih
among us, im proud of evryone effort
making our presentation smooth n success.
I love u girls =)

xtually sgt2 baik
komitmen yg dberikan oleh stiap ahli
kumpulan sbb mahu jg turun mnyiapkan
presentation ni. Alhmdulillah n Thank u =)
sy syg classmates sya!

Hurm...
InsyaAllah i will succeed to
go through each of asasi's day
setelah apa yg blaku.
adakah anda ingin tahu?
Neehhh... x yah la. just not important nway.

Im not ok with it n im gonna get through of it!
Thx Fiqah, Raihan, moss , mardhiyah n fakriah!
These r those ppl tht makes me 
still wanna wake up another day
n FIGHT! YEAH!
Stand up Fatin Affina
becoz u still hv a long journey here
n if u stop
from this journey
u gonna regret it.

. لَا إِلَٰهَ إِلَّا أَنْتَ سُبْحَانَكَ إِنِّي كُنْتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمِينَ {87}
(La ilaha illa anta. Subhanaka inni kuntu minaz zolimin) 
Ertinya :"Tidak ada Tuhan yang sebenarnya disembah melainkan engkau, ya Allah. 
Maha Suci engkau, sesungguhnya aku adalah dari orang yang membuat zalim." 
SURAH AL-ANBIYAK(21):87

...

그럴리 없다고 아닐꺼라고 믿었죠
It wasn't possible, so I believed it wasn't true
내가 그댈 사랑한단 이 말도 안되죠
Me loving you, these words don't even make sense
괜한 질투일꺼라고 내가 외로운가보다고
I'm probably just jealous, I guess I'm getting lonely
자신을 속여봤지만 이제 더는 난 감출 수가 없는걸요
I hid my feelings before but I just can't do it anymore

우린 안어울린다고 친구 그게 딱 좋다고
Maybe we are not suited to each other
It would be good if we are just friends

하나부터 열개 도대체 뭐 한개라도 맞는게 없는데
From one to ten, we never agree on anything
How can we have a relationship?

어떻게 사귈 수있냐고 말도 안돼는 얘기라고
People say we won't be able to do it
말하며 둘러 댔지만 이제더는 난 그러기가 싫은걸요
I've been surrounded by those words and I don't want to be anymore.

(Bridge)
난 몰랐죠 그대라는걸 Woo 왜 못봤죠 바로 앞인데
I didn't realize how I felt about you,
Why couldn't I see? It was right in front of me

그동안 이렇게 바로 내곁에 있었는데 왜 이제서야 사랑이 보이는건지
That whole time you were right next to me
Why is it now that I finally see that it is love?


(Chorus)
I think I love you 그런가봐요
I think I love you that's how it seems
Cause I miss you 그대만 없으면
Cause I miss you when you're not around
난 아무 것도 못하고 자꾸 생각나고 이런걸 보면 아무래도
I can't do anything except think about you
If I look at how things are I know


I'm falling for you 난 몰랐지만
I'm falling for you, I didn't realize it but
Now I need you 어느샌가 내 맘
Now I need you, somehow deep in my heart it grew
깊은 곳에 아주 크게 자리잡은 그대의 모습을 이젠 보아요
Now all I want to do is take care of you

I think I

Assalamualaikum~
Haihhhhh~
(*sigh again)
Yesterday ada majlis "memilih menara gading"
which means that
majlis utk pljr2 asasi UiTM
bertujuan mmberi pendedahan
awal tntg course apa yg hndak dpilih
after graduation nnty.

As usual,
mmg rmai yg pgi,
we got coupon for that ^^
coupon activity.
we should have at least 8!
huhu~
at this moment,
i just have about 6 if im not mistaken.

Here r some pic from yesterday event =)










There are some IPTA's that come here
to UiTM puncak Alam
open their booth 
n giving information about admission 
n about courses that they offer in their Uni.
Also, There r some faculty from UiTM
itself open their booth!
they even give us goodies bag. =)
Alhmdulillah~
ThanXx to all IPTA n UiTM
for estaslishing such beautiful prog.

Sgt3x best.
also, the most important thing
yesterday,
i got my opportunity to talk with
real doctor, which is also a lecturer
from Faculty of medicine at UiTM
i am so honoured,
He was very softspoken guy,
wow! he was very warm n +ve
he encourage me a lot
yesterday.
sygnya~ i forgot to ask his name 
=( huhu~

He had boost my wisdom
to just follow my dreams
and, when we do our best
Allah will do the rest.
i am happy! they even give me 
Fculty of med notebook n medical & health reviews =)
just becoz im asking too much 
it is not im am mintak puji n all that stuff
but it is about the curiosity that had in mine =)
Faculty of Medicine! 
wait for Fatin Affina Sabali!
InsyaAllah Amin~

Follow ur heart~

Allah... im in despair~

The weather outside is not good~
Nowadays asyik hujan jak,
Sejuk sgt2x smpai mls nak bukak kipas,
Roomate demam,
ksian sgt2x.

Get well soon Afiqah Norsham =)
rsau sgt2, tgk dier dmam.

ARRGGHHH~
this week sgt byk perkara yg mntensionkan
1st of all, byk sgt2 assignment n tutorial
n next week kena wat presentation for phy lab.

2ndly, xdala homesick sgt,
tap rs mcm nak kuar dri puncak alam
sbb nak pegi pantai
LABUAN!!!! tggu lah aku~
rndu ombak, bunyi laut, kesegaran bayu laut
yg meresap ke kulit,
sunset =)
OMG! i really really seriously need this.

3rdly, sedih sbb personal pob skit
yg sedikit agak membebankan emosi
hati n perasaan.
HAIHH!
need to find one focus point
focal length! haha
Lek LUUU~
Talking to myself  "FIGHTIN!"

4thly, kena catch up byk sgt subject
rndu ProF. Ahmad Abd Hamid =(
my inspiration gone

So, reasons2 inilah yg mnyebbkan 
rs mcm mahu give up
tap, kenapa still teruskan perjuangan ni?

sbb:

1stly, Allah
Allah turunkan ujian untuk mendidik hambaNya 
mnjadi seorg yg kuat n tabah
n dugaan2 ini setnding dgn kemampuan kita
insyaAllah Sya mampu mghadapinya Ya ALLAH!

2ndly, Parents
Smua penat lelah parents
working nak cri duit
smata-mata mahu kami ada kerjaya
satu hari nnty
n pada masa itulah giliran kami pula yg 
akn mggntikan tempat mereka
insyaAllah~

3rdly, Bestfriends
Sbb sy masih kuat berdiri di UiTM Puncak Alam
dgn adanya 
Moss,
Fakriyah
Mardhiyah
Raihan
Afiqah
Athirah
Amalina
mmberikan kekuatan utk terus berjuang
bersama mghabiskan asasi 2010/2011
Terima kasih sbb sudi mendampingi saya.
kamulah sahabt terhebat =)

4thly, Friends
student B3 yg begitu
sporting n ceria
mmbuatkan kelas tutorial
n lab begitu BEST
n smgt nak dpt 4 flat smua. =)

5thly,
sbb Natrah zainal
sye sy awk! <3
Im sorry natrah zainal,
if one day, i didnt pursue MEDIC =(
n it seems that we cant work together on a same place
Im Lost now. I just dont knw...

hurm... tu jelah. The best thing to do knw is to recite quran, surah Yassin, to find peace n strength
to woke up tomorrow n FIGHTIN!
Guide me Allah~ 

Moved

(8.15 am)
Terima mesej drpd mama tersyg dri LBN

" Alhmdulillah, syukur abg dpt 4 flat"

YA ALLAH~ syukur sgt3x
rasa sebak sgt2 sbb xtaulah
mmg abg sndiri kan
so sgt2 bgga dgn

MOHD ALFIE SABALI
yg sdg mngmbil jurusan kejuruteraan kimia
di UiTM Kota Samarahan, Sarawak

Alhmdulillah...
Alhmdulillah...
Alhmdulillah...

xtau mcmna mau pnjtkan kesyukuran nie
masa call mama n ckp dgn abg tad
Air mata memenuhi kelopak mata =')
Terharu dgn berita yg dsmpaikan

x sgka sama2 dpt result yg cemerlang
Alhmdulillah...
berkat doa n usaha
juga pengorbanan kedua-dua ibu bapa
pendorong utk trus bljr n bljr
akhirnya, kejayaan digenggam.

Moga apa yg Allah bgi ini,
adalah yg terbaik buat kami,
Rasa terbayar semua penat lelah mama n babah
bekerja utk beli tiket kapal terbang
n bagi duit dkat kami~ 

To Mama n Babah
Nie sj yg kami mampu bagi
Terima kasih Mama n Babah
Hnya Allah sj yg mampu mmblsnya
di Akhirat nnti

InsyaALLAH~
Akn tercpai apa yg dihajati 
baik utk
Atin, Epi n Eji
Segala-galanya mcm mimpi.

Benarlah bahwa
Allah tambah nikmat jika bersyukur =)

Awal Muharam

Assalamualaikum
Mowning peeps~
Alhmdulillah, dipanjang umur sehari lgi olehNya.

1 Muharam 1432H
Alhmdulillah,
smlm ada majlis mmbc doa awl tahun n
akhir tahun beramai-ramai
kat Angsana.

Frankly speaking
this is my 1st experience n
(msti korg x caye kan?)
i wish i would have another chance
for next year
insyaAllah~
Guide me

WoW.
Alhmdulillah~
Semoga Allah sntiasa mmberikan 
petunjuk n Hidayah kpd kita.
Moga hati kita x terhijab dgn kesenangan dunia.
Takut sgt2 seandainya Allah
tutup hati kita drpd menerima hidayahNya.

Hurmm... 
still learning to be a good muslimah


msih belajar tntg keindahan islam
Moga Allah permudahkan
sgt2 brsmgt nak improve kan dri ini.
so, sape2 ade suggestion.
pls suggest me something good to read (book) k =)

Back to the topic
Maal Hijrah

Means
'migration'
Lastnight, ustaz tu xplain,
bhawa, on this day,Nabi Muhammad s.a.w migrate from mecca to madinah Al-Munawwarah.
Besides, Maal Hijrah means changes from bad side to good side n be a starting point to evaluate inner-self on self achievement.

So, since this is the starting point for all muslim
i would like to wish all muslim
"hepi new Year"
may this 1432H
will be our blessed year
n Hoping to improved ourself to a better person.

Lets make our aim

"wherever u r going to Hijrah, Together we pray it will always be GREAT, GOOD n BARAKAH"
Quotes from i luv islam. =)



Back to December

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I'd go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I'd go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I'd go back to December all the time

All the time

By Taylor Swift =)

*shy shy shy*

Today was friday
roomate blik rmh.
tggallah aku dan raihan kat sni. 
Hurm.. sgt2 rndu nak tlis blog.
Xtually lpas blik dri kedah last week
mmg planned nak update
byk sgt5X story nak share masa trip tu

skrg mo upload photo
mcm mls la pulak
AiGoo~~
xpa2, next time la k. ^^
Nway, Kedah soooooo Nice!
Sgt3X Suka!
view of paddy field,
terasa mcm kat sabah.
mcm dri menumbok ke KK
cuma
Sabah dah kurang nmpak sket sawah padi
ada certain2 area jak.
while, Labuan pla,
Of course xda sawah padi
sbb pulau ja kan.
BUT 
seriously! SGT2X RNDU PANTAI!!
Nurul Adlina bustamih, wait for me!
(^.^)

Next!
This week was tough
kelas bz la jgk. well, foundation kan..
mo kejar sylibus
Xtually, sedih sgt2
sbb dah tukar group lecture hall
sbb smua hebat2 last sem pnya student
but, Alhmdulillah..
Thanxx to Allah sgt2x
sbb mempertemukan rakan2 yg hebat
dpt buat discussion psl subjek fiz yg laju mcm 
kereta api =.=''
LovE korg sgt2X
MuaXx!

Next!
I think i cant sleep tonite
msti kamu pelik kenapa title "shy shy shy"
hehehehhehhe
saja ja tu.
Klah, nah, tgklah gmbr sepanjang journey
to bumi Allah yg kaya dgn makann Ruji
manusia d Malaysia =)
(kata mls mo upload. alang2 dah write blog, upload je laaa)





2nd SeM with moss n mardhiyah. xtually ada fakhriah.
PALAM








smua gmbar di ats adalah d Pulau Penang =)

gmbo kat kedah nnty sya update yek.
xda apa2 sgtlah. gmbr yg biasa ja.
K, bye.
salam.

::Long Journey::

Morning peeps~
its friday,
hri nie xda klas, 
smue cncel sbb bru 1st week
so, kelas blum start sgt.

Nway, talking bout class,
Alhmdulillah
smua bjln dgn lncar,
syukur padaNya~
~Alhmdulillah Ya Allah~

Perasaan skrg
:: Takut ::
Hurmmm....
takut x dpt catch up apa2 dlm lecturer hall
smua org nmpak cnfident
ke mna hilangnya keconfidentnan ku???

BTW,
im off to Kedah tomorow,
negeri jelapang padi,
i wonder hw is it??
msti nice kan?? =)
tgk sawah bendang,
wow!
Hrp experience yg best
cuma mybe penat tolak guna kreta dri Bangi ------>kedah
guna highway .

Aigooo~
dlm map nmpak dekat ja kan.

kjap lgi jam 8 kluar PALAM
Family smua smpai sni jam 1
nek flight~ insyaAllah semuanya akn selamat

Ooo yaa??
the purpose is xtually,
my uncle, is going to engage
dgn org Kedah
woww~ jauh x??
Labuan dgn kedah ^^
Bit excited dpt aunt from kedah!

Hepi engagement uncle! (ack mad)
Thnxx for taking care of me while im studying here
im praying for ur prosperity n happiness
Amin


k, pray for my journey~
Salam

PALAM

Aigoo~ Aigoo~ Aigoo~
Esok blik PALAM!!!!!! (UiTM Puncak Alam)
dah sbln kot cuti,
tu yg mmg MALAS nak blik
ingt plak dulu masa sem I
aku n rumetku *Natrah Zainal
bila tibapnyakit malas kami..
Naaa~ Mula la tu kami merepek2.
Kdg2 kami slalu ckp,
ayt2 power slalu ;

"knapa laa mau study lgi? tgkap dah trbuka luas tu... apa lgi. hehehe"
"apa kata quit study pastu, kwin dgn llki kaya yg tua bangka then tggu smpai dia mati n kita kan jad jutawan!!!"
(aigoo~)

atau , kami akn nyanyi depan cermin cm org psycho, 
lagu 'I am beautiful' by cristina aguilera kalo x silap.

Aigoo~ tap skrg dah tkar rumet dah
rumet dulu dah fly g MESIR Woooow~
amik medic, Alhmdulillah~
proud of her,
Blaja baik2 natrah... =)

Glad still hv Raihan Redzuan kat sna,
^^
Miss u raihan! jpe kat kolej MOK!

NEXT!
=')
sedey- sbb mo pisah blik dgn family (mcm bdk2)
terharu (sbb byk yg wish 'gud luck')
hepi (smgt plak nak study utk sem II)
nebes (xtau apa yg akn berlaku, Theres a bigger obstacle to be face)
rojak lah smua jadinya. 

Apa2 pun, cuti kali nie byk sgt2 kenangan~
Hangout dgn kwn2, bestie
hangout dgn cuzzie 
hangout dgn siblings
hangout dgn Andi, imad n aish
hangout dgn cgu2, mcik2 , hehe

im not gonna remember the days, 
but ill treasure every moment we together.

<3 u all sgt2x



:: Kesengalan ::

23:38
late again.
pasni mo tido lah. 
Alunan suara takbir kedgran dri blakang umah tad
sgt2 merdu + mendayu-dayu
tringt kat arwah atuk n arwah mama sanah =)
rndu sgt3x =')

lupakan kesedihan sebentar
psl today,
mmg kecoh, kepoh, kepop n Heboh (ada kena mngena ka plak?)
aigoo~
tad jln pegi UK (ujana kewangan)
dgn cousin
mna lagi kan tmpt bejalan, mmg xdok dah =(
lain la kalo tetiba Mid valley, Pavilion, One borneo ka tetiba jatuh *(Bunyi) plup!* dri langit
kalo mcm tu kan, mmg hbislah pavilion + one borneo + mid valley tu
 jad tmpt pengepungan org2 labuan. hehe =p

Saya bangga dengan diri saya pada hari ini (skema)
sbbnya, walaupun sy nie shopaholic
tap hri nie berjaya berjimat cermat ^^
smua yg dbli berdasarkan apa yg dprlukan
YEzAA! katakan YA pd YAKULT! hehe

jln2 tad snap2 gmbo sket
dgn my cousin. 
sorilah kalo nmpak gedik. huhu


sya syg smuaaa!

Next,
PERHATIAN!!! budak comel bernama
Mohd Afif Aiman
sesungguhnya mak ngah amat merindui anda =')
Alhmdulillah dpt jmpa tad
tap msih x puas laaaaa! huhu
insyaAllah esk dpt jmpa lagi~ =D







okeyh. cm x larat mo blogging dah.
sgt2 mngntuk smpai terangguk2 dah kepala
aigoo~ 

tomolo again stoly aaa... 
Alhmdulillah syukur. 
Bye. *wink


::insomnia::

Aigoo~ Aigoo~
dah jam 2.14 pgi wehh!
knapa kah x dpt tido??
hurm... x dpt tido, jad aku amek kept tuk 
tulis blog pagi2 buta ni.
Selamat pagi kawan2! 
skrg kita ke udara
dlm rncgn "Jgn tido lagi ~"
ehh? diamla! mulalah merepek pagi2 nie. heee

keyh, jom story2. 
x dpt tidooo~ apsal weh??
insomnia dah! dahlah mata mcm panda~
sumpah bleh bukak kelab panda sedunia =p. huhuu
klah2. mybe sbb xlama lgi mo blik k Puncak dah.
Haihhh... cuti dah smkin nazak.
=(((( sedeyyyyy~

brblik kpd topik x dpt tido,
sni aku kongsi tips 
bnda apa yg prlu buat supaya kita ngantok! ^^

= jeng jeng jeng =

1---->1st skali kalo x dpt tido, jln2 dlm rmh. smpai pnat. kiralah 100 round (kalo rmh tu kecik)
samamcm kamu jln2 d UK (urg labuan tau ne ; Ujana kewangan)
dmna tmpat satu2 nya mall yg ada d labuan n teenager buat larian "button" dsna. aigoo. mksdnya, jln2 ja tmpt yg sama, kdai yg sama, jmpa org yg sma n bak kata pepatah mcm DEJA VU. (merepek)
2nd-------> pegi peti ais, selongkar, pastu mkn la apa ja bnda yg ada d dlm peti ais tu. sblm tu, tgk kiri kanan, pastikan xda org tguk. hehehehehe. joke, what i mean hear, why dun u hv a glass of hot milk? isnt dat gud? sure make u Zzzz~
3rd------> pegi bukak TV then tgk rncangan yg annoying atau boring. baring ats sofa n tguk ja lama2. insyaAllah TV akan menonton anda. hahahahaha~
4th------> bgi yg pmpuan, kalo dah boring sgt, mmg x dpt tido, pgi search blog Fatin Liyana Asri, pastu tgk cara2 pkai shawl n try depan cermin. make up2 sket. then, SNAP pic!
5th-------> bukak lappy n tlis blog! aigoo~ 
6th---------> kalo x dpt tido juak, disarankan beribadah kpdNYA =) itulah yg terbaek!

klah, melalut dah malam2 nie. cara terakhir aku adalah belakun buat2 tido, bygkan aku sdg belakun dlm filem. =) k, bye,gud nite.

Family ties




Today was the confession day,
im going to my cousin's house to settle out 
all the misunderstanding between us.
Alhmdulillah, 
before going to their place,
i perform 'wuduk'
to move away my anger.
Then, arrived at her house,
saw her playing with my nephew outside,
then, ran back inside.

Assalamualaikum, we'd greeted them,
My aunt invited us in,
we sit n my father begins to talk.
Then, the pupose of us being there was told~
she comes out n sit, though at first she refuse to,
i talk, explaining everything i could,
The conversation was awkward at first,
i speak confidently,
Bla, bla, bla
n then, sit beside her n talk
I heard her xplaination,

i knw, this is not only her fault,
i can't only pointed my finger on her,
so, we discuss with a soft talk,
without any argument,
we'd hug n cry.
Feels some connection betwen our heart,
The bruises begins to recover,
yet, leaving a scars.

Alhmdulillah~ we managed to solve this pob.
Alhmdulillah, Allah had soften her heart n she accepted her wrong doings
Alhmdulillah, becoz Allah had making me stronger
Alhmdulillah becoz Allah had given us love
to strengthen our family ties.
i love everyone each of u "my family"

My father said today : " i've given u this opportunity, to solve this problem because u r matured enough to differentiate between good n bad. n to become a doctor (insyaAllah), u'll face more challenging obstacles esp the job that involving u with another person. (emotionally) And that challenge is even bigger than that u'd face rite knw. so, be strong n never be afraid. "

n i found this wonderful quote ^^
At the end of the day, a loving family should find everything forgivable.  ~Mark V. Olsen and Will Sheffer, Big Love, "Easter"




Thanks BABAH n MAMA. u always be the reason why i still stand.
i hve 1000 reason to give up, but, just one reason to keep holding on
its U

Semoga mndpt ibrah dpd atrikel ni. =)


This artikel i pick today from iluvislam.com. sungguh x sgka prkara yg slalu brlaku nie amt ptg sbnrnya dlm mncari keredhaanNya~ 

Tidak Bertambah Kerana Pujian, Tidak Berkurang Kerana Kejian


Apabila kita melakukan kebaikan yang terlihat oleh orang lain, pasti ada yang mengatakan : 
"Wah! Baguslah awak."
" Awak memang baik."
"Jarang jumpa orang macam awak."
" Hebatnya!"
Paling tidak pun, akan ada yang tersenyum menandakan sebuah penghargaan kepada kita. Lantas kira menjadi termotivasi dan bersemangat untuk terus melakukan kebaikan.
Kita merasakan ada nilainya kebaikaan tersebut pada pandangan mata manusia. Bagaimanakah pula keadaannya apabila ada yang mengatakan :
"Eleh, tu nak tunjuk baik la tu."
"Buang masa awak saja buat macam tu."
" Jangan buat macam tu lagi lain kali!"
Apakah kesannya kepada diri kita?
Adakah kita masih terus melakukan kebaikan tersebut atau kita meninggalkannya?
Kesan yang berlaku atas diri kita daripada respons positif dan negatif orang lain ini menjadi indaktor kepada keikhlasan kita dalam beramal.
Nilai sesebuah amal itu tidak dapat ditentukan berdasarkan kepada pujian manusia. Apa yang lebih penting adalah penilaian Allah SWT.
Apabila telah ada saranan untuk melakukan sesebuah amal daripada Allah SWT dan Rasul SAW, maka ia tetap mempunyai nilai yang tinggi sama ada orang lain memuji atau mengeji.
Dalam ertikata lain, orang yang ikhlas tidak akan berganjak sedikitpun daripada sebuah amal yang baik, bahkan dia sentiasa istiqamah dengan kebaikan. Tidak bertambah kerana pujian, atau berkurang kerana kejian.
Berbeza dengan seseorang yang mengejar pengiktirafan manusia, bila dipuji dia berbangga dan menambah lagi kebaikan, bila dikeji dia merasakan seolah-olah azab Allah menimpanya lalu dia meninggalkan amal baik tersebut. Konsistensi amalannya bergantung kepada respons manusia terhadapnya.
Seseorang yang saya maksudkan tersebut boleh jadi kita sendiri, termasuk saya yang menulis.
Pernahkah kadang-kadang kita merasa kagum dengan mujahid Islam yang syahid lantas kita juga bercita-cita untuk syahid sepertinya?
Namun jauh di sudut hati kecil kita bersuara, "Tentu aku akan dikenang orang."
Pernahkan kita membaca karya agung ulama-ulama silam lantas kita ingin berkarya seperti mereka?
Hati kecil kita masih lagi bersuara, "Tentu orang akan menyanjung aku."
Tatkala kita melayani perasaan tersebut dan berusaha mengejar pengiktirafan manusia, maka amal kita telah dicemari dan tidak lagi ikhlas. Namun apa yang boleh kita usahakan ialah menentangnya dan melawannya.
Oleh itu, matlamat yang jelas perlu ditentukan sejak kita berniat melakukan sebuah amal sehinggalah kita habis melaksanakannya.
Keikhlasan itu perlu dijaga – sebelum, ketika, dan setelah melakukan sebuah amal. Susah memang susah, sebab itulah perlunya mujahadah.
Sampai bila? Sampai kita bertemu Allah SWT. Saya masih ingat pesan Ustaz Che; Abdul Majid yang pernah saya kenali di Pusat Asasi UIAM Petaling Jaya dulu;
Berbuat baik ayuhai teman,
Ke dalam laut engkau campakkan,
Kalau tidak dikenal ikan,
Tuhanmu tahu iyakah, bukan
Bait syair di atas menyeru supaya kita ikhlas melakukan sesebuah amal hanya untuk keredhaan Allah SWT dan hanya untuk mendapatkan ganjaran daripada Allah SWT.
Amal yang baik itu takkan sekali-kali disiarkan oleh Allah. Bahkan yang terdetik di sudut hati kita juga tak pernah terlepas daripada pandangan Allah SWT. Biarlah Allah yang menilai kebaikan kita dan memberikan ganjaran di akhirat. Firman Allah:
"Apakah kamu mengira bahwa kamu akan dibiarkan, sedangkan Allah belum mengetahui (dalam kenyataan) orang-orang yang berjihad di antara kamu dan tidak mengambil menjadi teman yang setia selain Allah, Rasul-Nya dan orang-orang yang beriman. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang kamu kerjakan." (At-Taubah : 16)
"Jika kamu tamakkan apa yang ada di sisi manusia, kamu akan dibenci Allah. Jika kamu tamakkan apa yang ada di sisi Allah,  kamu akan disanjung manusia." - Kata hikmah.
Bahkan dalam memuji juga kita harus berhati-hati. Boleh jadi pujian kita itu akan menghancurkan saudara seagama kita. Pujilah sekadar yang perlu dan kembalikanlah hak menilai itu kepada Allah. Dalam sebuah hadis, Rasulullah SAW berpesan;
"Dari Abdurrahman bin Abu Bakrah dari bapanya r.a katanya : Seorang lelaki memuji orang lain berhampiran Nabi, lalu Nabi berkata kepadanya : " Celaka kamu. Bereti kamu memenggal leher saudara kamu. (Kata-kata itu baginda ucapkan banyak kali). Apabila seseorang kamu memuji saudaranya, seharusnya dia berkata, "Cukuplah bagi si fulan Allah sahaja yang menilainya. Tidak ada yang lebih berhak menilai selain Allah Taala, sekalipun temannya tahu dia begini dan begitu." (Hadis Riwayat Muslim)
Jika ada yang memujimu, katakalah "Alhamdulillah" dengan sebenar-benarnya
by ZulYunus